Emotionally Loathsome

Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever wanted to rip that persons heart out, feed it to them for breakfast while screaming in their ears with a voice so high pitch their eyes go blind and ears explode? Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever wished they'd burn in an unforgiving fire so slow that time literally stops while the flames continued? Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever seen that person and immediately went into attack mode releasing the stare of doom? Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever had dreams that hurt you so much, that you just wanted to be at their door step at that very moment and make that nightmare be a reality causing harm to them like they've emotionally done to you? Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever wanted to brutally slaughter that person and cause blasphemy within their loved ones? Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever hated someone you loved so much? Have you ever hated someone the way that I loved you?

Love Can Be Hollow, But Yet No One Knows It

What do I mean to you?

What do I remind you of?

Am I such a horrible creation?

That there's no room for me beyond this love

Do I stand out within the crowd?

Do I light up the night with my presence?

Or am I just what others say I am

Another wasted second

Moments, minutes,days and weeks

Maybe you're not the one

Constantly sick of the rainfall

Or being burnt up by the sun

What else could there be for me?

What else should I know?

Why is it when I hold on to you?

You're always letting go

Life is like a box of chocolate

But sometimes it gets bitter

Spoiled and melted by the sun

Or cold and froze by the winter

A million and one things to think

Maybe you can be it

You'd come back to me with a hand of roses

And a candy sweet like kiss

Memories beyond the sheets

Tears behind the bed

I gave you what you wanted

But yet I love you never said

What do I mean to you?

What do I remind you of?

Can this moment last forever?

Can you give a lovers hug?

Why is it you never notice?

My hair, my clothes, or my makeup

What does it take for you to see?

And just wake up please wake up!!

I opened my eyes one day

Lying on a concrete floor

Drenched in blood and wasted away

Breathless, hurt and sore

I heard him at the corner of my ear

Laughing away with pride

My heartless soul was broken

My broken soul had died

I realized all my lively thoughts

Meant nothing in his eyes

And as I lie there wasted

It came as no surprise.

Ignorance is Bliss

I was told the phrase "beauty is in the eye of the beholder" is for ugly people...

But before that person decides to talk, maybe they need a brief check in the mirror because every thing that just came out that person's mouth is written all over their face.

No matter how cute, sexy, or pretty you may think you are, if you have an ugly attitude so does your whole image. By treating someone like crap all the time make you look like crap.

By calling a girl out her name or calling a guy out his name make you look like exactly what you called them.

Beauty yes is in the eyes of the beholder so if you make yourself look a mess, that's exactly how the worlds going to see you.

This one idiot who doesn't know how to treat people...

So might I add, who's the ugly one now? Huh?

Maturity

What is maturity, and why is it so important to one's life? When we grow from being this young rebellious teenager to this adult the one thing the majority of us want to be is mature. It's like the one thing that comes out our mouths when someone you know is embarrassing you. "Dude grow up you're so immature." Dozens of us want to change how we dress, how we speak to others, what our rooms looks like, or even how we do our hair just because they feel like that's maturing. But if you think about it, can a hairstyle look mature, look like it developed and reached maturity. Can a room look mature just by moving some furniture around? Well maybe it can look professional in my opinion. I see maturity as one's character and not a fashion statement. Maturity is not a look; I see it as someone's personality.It doesn't matter what you dress like when going to your first day of college. It doesn't matter what your room looks like either because if you think about it, not many people will be seeing your room besides some friends and the people u live with. So forget what your family wants you to be, forget what your friends want you to be, or even your significant other. Do what you want because it's your choice not theirs.

Medical V.S Nature

Some say that humans are meant to evolve and the electricity, iPods, cellular devices, medicines, vaccines, and the modern way of living is now what we must be equipped to. But fixing or repairing the parts where the symptoms of underlying illnesses manifest themselves, modern day medicine fails miserably to achieve. What I’m seeing is that the many people who have been treated with drugs find other complications that happen within themselves as well. For example, there’s a drug called Tenormin and it is used to treat chest pain and hypertension which is high blood pressure. The problem with this is that this drug has side effects that are slow heart rate, fatigue, and breathing difficulties in people with severe underlying lung problems.

Now, would you want to try to fix a problem with your heart along with cause other abnormal conditions happening to you as well? In my opinion I wouldn’t, and there‘s a better more natural way to help someone’s heart condition. Now I’m not saying all Medicine and drugs are bad, because some do help, but if we manifest on this earth then shouldn’t everything we need be right here on mother earth? I’m not saying the farm life is the best life either but the organic way of things should at least be considered. Would you rather eat a fresh apple picked from the tree or a processed piece of fruit straight from the can or the factory? They have many books that teach you and health stores that can provide a more organic way of healing yourself. Why depend on the chemicals and frustrate yourself with having to take other medication to help with the sides effects of one drug?

Another thing, vaccines can also be another physical problem cause to the humanity. A vaccine is a biological preparation that improves immunity to a particular disease. Many vaccines actually contain live viruses that doctors inject in your body. For example, The Hepatitis A vaccine which contains a Lil of the hepatitis virus in it, or other vaccines that have fragments of viruses such as polysaccharides, toxoids, or weakened viruses. This is “actually supposed” to help create antibodies within you to fight off the disease if you were to catch it, which basically means they give you the virus in hope that your body is “strong enough” to fight it off so that in the future the if you were to face that virus again your antibodies can “beat it”. This all in one sounds like a good plan, and in some cases it works. But what about the millions who have died because their weak immune system, because of the doctors Lil experiments that cause many people to get really sick or die due to disorders or other abnormal things that happen to your body because of these vaccines? A lot of people’s bodies can’t fight off these viruses that these vaccines provide you. So what would you do then?

Many studies show that there was less illnesses spreading before the vaccine idea ever had been acknowledged. So why vaccinate and risk your health?

My point with what I’m saying the Medical way is not always the best way and there can be more natural organic ways of healing or helping yourself. So why not give it a chance?

Darkness

When it’s dark enough you can see the stars. The darker the day the brighter you are.
We see darkness as a horrible thing to face, but I see it as the one thing that keeps us strong. Darkness is strength. Pain, agony, oppression is your strength, because without that suffer, you wouldn't be as strong as you are. You’d fear, and run when you could fight back.
Aim that anger toward the attacker and not the by stander. Darkness is truth, in its way the truth hurts, and that pain causes realization, causes people to open their eyes and wake to this reality we call darkness.
Darkness may be tragedy, but where would you be if you hadn’t experienced that one thing that made you think…”work hard and I can make it out this mess.”

The Difference between Fear and Fear

Fear can be explained in two different ways in my opinion. I would say there’s that fear of insects or stage fright, but then there‘s that fear of failure. That psychological trepidation, or internal apprehension, and as it would all sound the same there’s a difference.
Many would see fear as something to overcome. As they all say “if you overcome your fears, it will make you stronger.” But what if I were to say that along with overcoming your fears, not overcoming them can make you strong as well? It would make you think and wonder… “How?” right?
I see it as this, there should be certain fears a person should over come. For example, your family likes to go camping and along with that trip involves some hiking or mountain climbing. You’re terrified of heights and obviously that seems to be the only thing holding you back. That would be a fear I can say someone could overcome. Another example would be dogs. Dogs are not always vicious aggressive animals and this fear could also be something worth getting over. But something like what was mentioned previously like fear of failure, or fear of doing something against you morals should remain. If you think about it, that phobia is what makes you work harder to achieve what you want or to prevent a negative outcome. Fear can be a mental anxiety that just holds you back, but it can also help you in ways you couldn’t even imagine. Say you fear of losing your job, your whole objective is to do whatever possible to keep that from happening. You’re using that fear as a reminder of something you wouldn’t want to happen. Like looking at someone that’s not so great and using that to guide you in the right direction so you’re not a failure, a murderer, a molester, or an abuser. There’s not much of a difference but this is my difference. Everyone has their own opinion on whatever and this is what I think. Fear is not always a bad thing because when there is darkness, a light is always right around the corner to guide you. There’s good in everything. To see it means thinking outside of the box but that doesn’t mean you have to be fearless to do it.